Looking for my new normal

[Gardener]

I told everything to my friend tonight. I had coffee with her and we talked for almost three hours. She said I looked really good, she wasn't sure what to expect- I'm not falling apart, I look strong, calm and relieved. I'm going to continue to nurture my friendship with her, and not let it get neglected again. I'm gonna call some other friends too.

Good for you.

You're right- I do have to stop looking back. The only questions worth asking if I do look back involve MY role in things- the hows and whys I (I was made to) let things happen (by a master manipulator). Questions about his role don't really matter much to me, unless he ever decides he wants to reconcile. Otherwise- it just doesn't matter...

Good questions worth exploring with IC, friends and/or alone. Better questions, I think, if you ask them and explore them this way.

I feel stronger tonight. I'm in control of my life- probably for the first time ever. Wow. Great! IC session is on Thursday. I'm gonna make some dinner and give Chester a cuddle afterward- he can hop around while he's waiting.