Pls help--confused and fearful

[Serenity13]

(((DbD)))

You don't know me...I have never posted to your thread however one of your fellow readers asked me to come and see you...

I started reading your thread and had to stop - I actually asked myself if you may be married to my H as well...

Everything he is doing to you - It is like watching my H...From the complete lack of respect to the cutting off of finances to the anger when you don't respond...

I didn't finish reading your whole thread however I will...I just want to note some things that may help you on a day to day basis...

NC is never to late and it is to protect you - My H hates when I don't respond however I could give a flying monkeys butt - I wait hours/sometimes days before I respond to him and he will blow up my phone/work email/home email until I answer him...

The money - I feel your pain having to beg for something to keep food on the table or because it was already pre-arranged and your H decided to just not do anything about it - In my sitch, I was racing my H to the bank every 2 weeks just to get a few bucks to take care of our boys - He didn't like that and 2 weeks ago changed banks/had his pay go into his new account/left our account overdrawn and didn't give nor offer me a dime...

I refuse to play his game - I will not beg him for crap - I would steal before I asked him for anything...Little does he know that I have filed for child support - In his little pea brain, he actually thinks that until we are divorced, he doesn't have to pay jack - Newsflash coming for him when he is served with child support papers within the next 10 days...

Because of his actions - My children and I were evicted & I lost my car...We are living in a converted garage (parents house) for now with no heat/air...I had to recently apply for food stamps as well...All of this has changed me - Not into the bitter person you would think but into a strong determined woman capable of holding my own...

NO man will break me - You have the choice to be ash or to rise above all of it...

You are better then this - From the few pages I read, I can see that however you are allowing yourself to get sucked into his crap.

Take a breath/find a quiet place and search within yourself to see what it is you truly want...If it is your marriage and you have the stomach for it, then stand...If it is a D then I find no fault for you in that either...Don't let him win by breaking you down and the mind games he is playing is his way of breaking you down to his level...

I am here if you want to talk - 99% of the time in Newcomers.