Things continue to roll on. I have occassions where I find myself anxious about the future, but there is no reason for me to be worried. My W has been great since we have been back together. I think it is just repercussions of what happened this past year.
We started exploring what happened over this past year in our last MC session. The C spent a lot of time asking me what it took for me to forgive. I said that it started with understanding what happened and how; then I accepted that none of us are perfect and we both made mistakes that led to the problems. Finally, I just needed to let it go.
The C then stated that that part of forgiveness had to include appreciation for the other. We need to appreciate all that the other brings to the relationship in order to forgive. He then asked my W if she could forgive herself? She said she wasn't sure.
This last session was very uncomfortable for both of us. But I am going to let the C lead us here. This is one place where I think I just need to trust the professional and the process.
Saving our M is exhausting; physically, mentally, & emotionally. But I would not trade this for anything; the reward is well worth it.
