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[gutwrenching]

Ok - I think I got it out me. I finally let a few tears fall from everything and from just being drained. Might let a few more go, but I got to get it together like now, because since I am the parent not in a freakin FOG, I got leave within 15 minutes to get the kids. Anger, that's good. Trust me, anger snaps me out of these funks quicker than anything and I can get my anger back under control.
Poker face, calm, confident, in control. If she brings up this afternoon, I'll just tell her she caught me a weak moment, I didn't handle the memorial service well, timing was off. I'm past it now. What's on the venue for tonight.

I can do this. SCREW her, she had the A, I have remained 100% faithful for 14.5 years putting up with a lot of crap along the way. I have to be the leader in bringing this back together.
And yes i still might disconnect the internet, or at least until I know its past midnight in the state he's in! HA!