Pls help--confused and fearful

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This "growing" into a better person is hurting like he!!.

Nothing worth having is easy ... so they say. What doesn't kill us makes us stronger ... so they say. Etc.

It hurts us all. It is hurting us all. But think of what you have learned about YOU. Think of who YOU are now. Would you honestly go back?

I'm tired of this. Tired of the mean person WAH has turned into. I want to give up. I want this to be over with. I don't want to get a hardened heart over this person.

We all get days like these. I get them quite often. What I have learned is that talking about it is actually the worst thing I can do. It sounds like today you talked all about your sitch. It brought it all back to the surface again. I noticed nowhere in your post do you mentioned that WAH contacted you ... which means he did nothing today.

I just feel like I'm going to be homeless and my kids will have to live with that man because I can't afford anything. He's really putting the screws to me and I know push has now come to shove. He's gonna get what he wants... for me to file. He wins.

Then that is what you must do. If you want to file then do it and make yourself at peace. This is about you.

I know from my own sitch that it will actually only be two circumstances under which I file - when I am good and ready or there is a cold day in hell. But that is me. I am willing to give up my house and the current life I have rather than give W the satisfaction of having me file on her. But that is now. Tomorrow something may come along that changes my mind.

BTW... no... haven't heard from my L yet.

Then you know what you need to do ...