feel like giving up - talk to me!

[luvless]

so what did he do when you first met?

yes, that is how things go in the beginning, especially in the infatuation stage...but then that dies, the feelings go away, and you have to decide, do I want to continue loving this person. Love is a decision, and you have made a decision to love your H is sickness and health, and right now he is sick.

You have way more strength than you know. Do you go to church anywhere? That would be great to get involved in a group of some kind.

would love the change of name too! great idea!

******Oh he was so very attentive and affectionate. He pursued me and I wasn't really interested. He said I was going to be his wife and I used to laugh ha!

I know love is a decision - I know that and I do remember I promised to love him in sickness and health....but what about me getting sick? mentally sick over what he's putting me through?..so I gotta think of me now.

We used to go to church (were christian) but we haven't gone regularly in 10 years. We went about a month ago and he prayed for our family.

I feel so fortunate to have all of you. Thank you!

[luvless]

I feel a little down today but am keeping busy. Last night was the first time H didn't call at night. He is being such an a**...whatever. He doesn't even call the kids and I hate that.

I ran some errands and cleaned out my closet today. It always makes me feel better when things are in order.

I'm going to dinner with a friend today..I'll have a good time.

I hope everyone is having a peaceful saturday.

[Wholeagain]

((()))
Enjoy your Saturday!

[rockedworld]

Good choices being busy and doing things that make you feel good....
(((Luv)))

[mindfull]

Hey, Luv!!!

I feel better when things are in order, too. There's nothin' like a closet w/all of your shirts/blouses, and pants in color order! And, everything fits! LoL

Hope dinner is fun!

Didn't call home, huh? Especially after knowing your suspicions? Methinks he needs a nooogie!

[luvless]

Hi guys - had a great time last night. It didn't help that there were 6 married couples around - that just made me a little sad. We had dinner and then went downstairs to dance by the DJ - still a good time.

H did not call yesterday evening nor has he called or text at all today. This is very out of character for him - he is just being very nasty - it's so disappointing.

I have felt very sad and alone today. A friend came and we had an early lunch then another come with her kids and we made dinner. I still I find myself with an aching pain that doesn't stop.

Thanks for all the hugs - much needed hugs

I

[DDogs]

H did not call yesterday evening nor has he called or text at all today. This is very out of character for him - he is just being very nasty - it's so disappointing.

I have felt very sad and alone today. A friend came and we had an early lunch then another come with her kids and we made dinner. I still I find myself with an aching pain that doesn't stop.

Thanks for all the hugs - much needed hugs

No expectations will leave you with no disappointments,, sounds like your going out and doing things and letting him tag along in your mind for free...

That was my hardest part of GALing/ detatching... it gets easier,, a trick I found was to find something I really enthusiastically wanted to do, that gets the mind busy and focused elsewhere... Not a one size fits all but when I found out a new work out routine program, I bought off into it 110%,, kept my mind busy and got in waaay better shape, better now at 46 than at 33,,,

[mindfull]

Hey, Luv! Is H returning today?

[luvless]

Hey Mind - he comes in Wed afternoon.

Thanks for the input DDogs!

[luvless]

Ok so it's been 4 days that H hasn't called. I have to say this even surprises me. I wanted to scream at him...thought about sending a nasty text but I held back and thought of something I had to say. I just didn't want him thinking that this was in any sense ok.

I text him last night "you not calling is an all time low" - he responds 45 mins later "ironing and relaxing in hotel room just watching tv..too tired for dinner raining too hard no desire to do anything." I did not respond. I don't believe he is just doing that - he hates to be alone. If he was in his room he's talking to someone or has someone with him! Otherwise there'd be no reason to call...whatever.

I guess I just needed to vent. I'm really disgusted by my H's not calling - it's a slap in the face and he knows it upsets me. So...I guess I will have to refrain from complaining about it - for now anyway - I am not going to do what he expects me to do - bitch at him for not calling.

I really don't know what to do guys when he gets back. It's going to be so awkward tomorrow when I pick him up. I know I need to stay positive for me and not let him get to me - any extra suggestions are welcome.