Wife lost her love for me - my story

[TomLost Love]

Waiting for her to give me seperation papers - I am not going to sign them until I get a lawyer. She told me she is asking for 60% of my net pay - I have no idea if thats reasonable or not (doesn't sound reasonable to me...) in todays Legal world. I failed completely on my 180 this weekend - I fought a lot with her and lost my temper very easily (prior to this whole situation, I was known as a very quiet person with virtually no temper) so I feel myself becoming "unhinged". I am also going to see a Dr since I just can't stop crying one minute, yelling the next, thinking dark thoughts the next, then being OK with everything the next, etc., etc. I feel like a real headcase right now. Funny thing is today is the 30th anniversary of our first date together - I decided to buy a card to give her, but instead of the "i love you" type I bought a Thank You card and wrote in it that despite where we are in this situation, I wanted to acknowledge this day, and that despite where we are headed, that I still wouldn't trade the last 30 years for anything in the world and I thanked her for those 30 years. I thought it was reasonable to acknowledge the day at least, even if it means nothing to her anymore. Anyway - I am still planning to go to a support group this Friday night, and am looking forward to using that as a springboard to meeting some new people to talk to. Later.....