Hi CW,
Good job on the 180's! Just remember, you don't want to totally deny your feelings. They are real and valid! Just don't show them to H right now. Let yourself cry AFTER he leaves. You need to let it out! You are in emotional pain and that needs to be acknowledged. Also, I am concerned about your daughter. That does not sound like healthy detachment to me. It sounds like she is shutting down emotionally, and that is not good. You do not want to be like that. Have you thought about getting both your kids into counseling? It might be a good idea.