I guess I am kinda journaling here. I kinda had a hard time after H left yesterday... been in a funk. Played a game with the kids so that helped! This morning, I couldn't help but think that H looked so "small" yesterday when he was here. Can't really pinpoint what I mean by that other than he used to seem bigger and stronger and I always felt safe in his arms. I knew that I could always count on him. Make any sense? Maybe I am successfully detaching and I should be happy about that I guess. I just keep thinking that IF he decides to come back and work on our R, will he ever be that man that he used to be? Will I ever look at him the same as I did when we first got married?
M48 H53 M16 T18 S16 D13 SS30 H drops bomb PA/8-30-09 H leaves 12-30-09 D filed by H 2-10 H asks to come home 4-11 Piecing
