Thank you peace. Yes this is some crazy ride! For the longest time I had hoped for this, but now that my life has progressed, it's doesn't feel as I thought it would. I guess that's why I was drawn back here. His revolation was such a shocker that I'm trying to investigate all angles to understand what I feel.
You know, MLC is a strange beast. We remember EVERYTHING that they have said and done as if it were yesterday. Just recalling those days brings back the pain and loss in an instant. For the MLC'r, there are black holes in their memory. In fact I have realized that many things that have haunted me were things just thrown out by my ex to stop me in my tracks and to justify why he did what he did. Actually I am worried about all of that muddy water that has run under the bridge.
The man my ex is now no longer makes excuses or throws blame, quite a change. The past is just that, but we have had to live with the reality of what they have done. I'm not so sure we can ever completely get over scars that runs so deep. That's why I'm not sure a new relationship is in the cards. I'm sure we can be friends. I have foregiven him and put whatever bitterness I had aside, but as I said before I am different.
I guess what I want people to know is that we take it so personally and feel like failures or as if we aren't good enough. Truth is it wouldn't have mattered who they were with because this is there path to walk.
