that is correct. the next three days were like nothing had happened he was back to his old self, then he went back to work, and it started all over again, no talking, no affection, no NOTHING,
Now it has been over a week since he has been gone...to this day, he says he is not having an affair, those text messages were just about hunting and working, I am sorry I just dont believe it and will not believe it until I have those message sappeoned, by a lawyer, I never found out what was on them, only that he had texted her for 4-6 hours on days during the week and also on a Sat, Sun, and calling her at 10:30 at night, that is all I know, he will not tell me anymore, He will not see anyone to open up to help him, For Christmas he brought me a 1/4 carat heart necklace, and then told me he was leaving, before that time he started sleeping on the couch, where for the past 2 and half months he was sleeping with me, I know the Christmas presents were out of guilt, that is the way I see it, but I have since brought them back...
I believe this woman is tugging on him and then there is me..I don't know why I feel like this, maybe cause he is not alone, and that he is with his daughter,
New Years sucked, I was like a crazy woman, by myself calling him and just acting like not myself.....I really need some help..I am seeing a thereapist, and she directed me to this web site.
Ok now that I have gone all around with my story, It has been a week now since he has been gone, yes, we talk to each other, I am trying the be a friend thing, that one person tried with her spouse, going along with everything that he has to do to be happy for himself, it is so hard for me. I am civil when I talk to him I joke with him I try to laugh, and want him to know that I am for whatever he thinks is best...He still hasn't moved his stuff out of our home YET, I really don't know what he is waiting for, I get he is waiting for his other relationship, if there is one, to be secure, before he makes his move, or he is just not sure of what he really wants, I also get told that maybe he is going through mid-life crisis thing, and maybe this other woman, showed him that he was indeed still handsome, or may be it was just lust, or he was just TIRED of our marriage, I don't know and he wont tell me or anyone, it always I DON"T KNOW.....
what do I do...I offered to help him move, find an apartment, whatever I can...Is that wrong of me...it hurts me so inside I can hardly stand it at times, and work sometimes sucks, cause I think of him.
We recently went out for supper, never talked about what was going on but caught up on things we haven't talked about, he took me to Walmart afterwards, and then we went home, I asked him to come in for a while, which he did and we watched football, it was great, but deep down in I wanted him to leave, but on the other end I miss him.....what is wrong with me...I am crying now, and wish I knew why, is it because he has maybe another woman, or is it I want him to hurt as much as I do, or is it the fact that I just don't want to be alone....I have friends, but I am not the best friend thing, I really have no one to hang out with,
does this make me a crazy person....I just wish Iknew what do do now, I am trying everything.....
