One last thing..Coming to this board taught me how to control the way I react to situations, gave me self esteem, and freeded me from my obessivesness over the relationship. It has given me my life back. I used to shop to feed the pain that I was feeling, now I shop when I need something. Lately it is because I have lost so much weight that my pants dont fit me:) I would rather go to the Y or hang out with my kids and H than shop. It gives me a sense of satisfaction. I have changed alot. I wish my H could see the changes are permanent and real and still after everything he has said I forgive him and want to walk by his side. I want to support him in life. I realize that I cannot control anyone but myself and THAT is why I am so glad I have come here.
