Looking for help with WAW

[mza8]

Quick update. Hadn't heard anything from W over the weekend about the meeting or anything else until she emailed last night. She told me she did finish reading my email from last week. She thought we should meet with my counselor next. She also said she would meet with my counselor first if I wanted her to. I emailed her back and asked why she wanted to meet in counseling. I'm sure it's for closure for her. She hasn't emailed back yet and also hasn't brought up meeting about dividing things up either. Interesting. Maybe she figures she needs to have this counseling session with me first now before the other meeting? I'm not kidding myself that her intentions for this counseling session are for anything other than closure but it sure would be nice if she wanted to talk with an open mind. If she does email me back and say it's for closure I don't think I will meet. My counselor said that's not a good if I want to save the marriage.

I spent the weekend doing things for me and not trying to think about W. It's hard at times. I re-read some of DB and DR. I know they say that it's possible for WAS to change their mind but the way my W is acting right now it sure doesn't seem like that is possible. Trying to concentrate on me now and take care of my life. I keep reminding myself that W and I have only been apart for 11 weeks so it's still very early in the process and hoepfully my W will come around in time. Her father told me that I need to establish a track record over time to show my W my consistent changes. He said I don't have one yet. Felt like telling him that's what I'm doing now so give me time to show it consistently.