I agree. I am flip flopping in between being okay with him gone and really missing him to the point it is painful.
I have gone dark in an effort to detach. I'm mainly exhausted by all this. I haven't spoken to him since Thursday. I also am doing better about getting out the house. However, he has come over to our home when I was not here. He took the garbage out and did a few miscellaneous things. I mentioned to a mutual friend that I wasn't feeling well on Saturday and he sent me a text and called to see how I was. They went unanswered by me. So, he stopped by just to check in unannounced for a minute and I thanked him and he went on his way. Other texts have been sent to me, but I have continued to leave them unanswered.
Don't know where to go from here????? Do I just have to be? Another thing I am struggling with is the thought of moving on. Not that it's hard, that it may be getting easier as each day passes and I replay the hurtful things he has said and done in the past few months. I want my marriage to work, but I am feeling myself becoming disenchanted more each day. Is this detachment? Is this just a phase?
