I know I sound all down. But I am not all doom and gloom. A little tired from a busy weekend. GAL is killing me.... Not used to these late nights.
Newmama. You never said anything wrong. Not once. So you have nothing to be sorry for.
Where I live you only need the Divorce if you want to get married. You can be seperated and live the rest of your lifes like that. Being seperated allows you to live common inlaw with a future partner. Which is basically the same.
The only way I would file for D is if I was going to get married again. And then I would ask for ladybug to pay half of it. Or just serve her.
We can talk more about that day later next week. I do plan on signing those papers that day. As I want to make sure I am finacially protected for when her Affair ends and her work enviroment falls apart. When I think about that day. I think being silent will say more than any word can. I will let her fully look into my eyes before and afterwards. If I shed some tears I will not hide them. For I am not ashamed to show my emotions now. I am not afraid of myself. I do not hide from myself. I also think that as my wife she is allowed to fully see the consequences of her actions and how deeply she hurt me.
Then it will be back to db rules.
No R talk. And I will not talk about my life to her. I only share my experiences with people who I respect and they respect me. Her actions speak louder than any words. I will also be mentally armed against crocadile tears and any crumbs. I will also remove myself from any arguements. I fully understand that the game is still being played.
The sea will be calm. I am still the lighthouse.
Flowers always make people better, happier, and more helpful; they are sunshine, food and medicine for the soul. unconditional love is awesome!
