Moving back in

[DDogs]

My response to all of this,,,? I am getting all dressed up and going out with friends later this eve after the W gets home.

Brilliant. Cheers!
Greek

Just a note to the readers on this board... Get off of your collective a$$es and go do something!! What a difference it does make... I go back to the beginning of my original post and see what a wreck I was...and then read thru the progress as I initiate DB and as I take action for myself.

Get back on track with my kids
Get checked out by my MD and address problems
Back on the Meds.. x2
Back in the house
DBing my F'n ass off.
Continue to detach.
GAL... (BIGGEST help ever)
Realizing W is Fogged
Continued efforts at standing up for myself

Easy,, F no... but it had to be done or I wouldn't be feeling the way I am right now...which is ok to good. A far cry from when I first posted:

http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=1884981

I case anyone is interested how my night out was... pretty damn good.. I woke the W at 8pm who was sleeping on the couch and asked her if she was staying home, she said Yes, so I told her ok, I wanted to confirm you'd be here for the kids tonite and reminded her that I was going out, (freshly showered, shaved, scented and done up) she said ok,

Out was a good environment, met my F friends who in turn introduced me to their F friends..here is the surprise that I'm finding less and less surprising. Several other women, all about 7-10 yrs my junior, approached to talk to me.. and were obviously trying to keep a conversation going with me.. one actually grabbed my left hand to hold it "jokingly" looking for a wedding band. (I removed my band when W told me she filed for D)

Folks,, this has seldom happened to me before, so I am certain my positive attitude, self confidence and increased self esteeme, are coming thru loud and clear. Something that hasn't been there in quite some time... and its being noticed, SO, if others are noticing it W would have to be a "Brick" not to. So even if W does not acknowledge any of this, I'm sure she is still picking up on this... where that leads,,?


I have a continuing struggled with GAL, and doing things to make me happy.. I have come to realize that I'm caring less and less about the possibility of D, If W decides that route, I cannot change that.. I find myself focusing more on me and not US.. If W de-fogs, I'll address that issue, until then, I continuing on.

As a side note, when I returned home at 1am, W was retiring to the guest room. I then received 3 phone calls from friends and when I spoke, I gave limited yes/no, vague answers.

When I awoke this am, W was very cheery and later on actually came into the Master B to tell me what she was doing with the girls today.....quien Sabes?

(A far cry from Bat sh it crazy night 12/29)