How do you release the anger?

[ddstartingover]

The intelligent, rational, sane, part of myself knows this is on him, but part of me ---- the irrational, emotional part of me still thinks that there is something about me keeping him from wanting to come back. Maybe the many months of me begging and pleading via e-mail and face to face confrontation? Maybe some inherent flaw in my character?? Every bit of this----all of his actions and what he has said and done is a complete 360 degree opposite of who I know he is---who I beleived he was.

I don't let these thoughts weigh me down. In the beginning I did, but they are there----gently knawing at my subconscious. I think this is what's keeping me stuck. It helps fuel the anger----both at him and myself. So, (Grace) I guess I am angry with myself.

Snodderly, Up -- thank you so much for your thoughts. As you know, nothing helps more than support from people who are there/have been there.