I really wonder that too and have for a while. During the height of my situation I was always pleasant and civil to my H but inside all I wanted to do was kick him in the face (wearing 5 inch heels, lol!). The idea of coddling or cuddling him while he was exhibiting such poor, disrespectful and dishonest behavior made me feel physically ill. After hours of listening to him bash and blame me and lie about EVERYTHING he would ask me for a hug, you know 'cause he was just being honest, lol, then get angry when I would wink at him, tell him take care and walk away.
I took the bus three hours EACH WAY to my dr's, diagnostic/lab testing and treatments so I would not have to ask him for a thing. Six hours a day on a bus while very, very ill to get treatment was far more favorable to me then asking him for a DARN THING.
Why would anybody want to cuddle and love on somebody that has treated them so poorly? I don't get it??
