It's okay -- even healthy -- to journal, and to vent. And if that's all you were doing, I wouldn't have cracked you with the 2x6.
"Today is a really hard day for me, I'm feeling thus-and-such, but tomorrow I will get back up on my horse" is much different than the kind of wallowing posts I'm talking about.
Experienced posters know the difference, and I think you will find their patience to be Job-like if you're just doing the former. But I don't think you are, and I worry that you're not successfully making even the very first steps of progress, and that eventually you're going to start losing your cheering section.
