Hi TIF! Just catching up on PC stuff. PC died and its taken me a while to tweak this laptop into action, hence my absence.
I`m doing well. We`re in mediation and I have found since I really let go of H in December and really began to believe he`d be a better Dad when he gets his freedom, I`m doing so much better.
Getting quite reflective actually.Why did I hold on to the marriage so long etc etc.
But the main thing is I`m feeling really positive about life actually improving for me once he`s gone.I`ve got a whole new me thanks to DB. I get to keep that and a key thing I`ve learnt is that in letting go, I`ve got to let go of anger and forgive H for MY sake.
Oh and remember my part in things too, so that this does not happen again. Gotta keep out of those old patterns!
Next Sat is the day we get to tell the kids. That`s the day I`ve dreaded all along but I`m feeling much stronger about that now. Two week later is the day he moves. Yeah, he tried to put the brake on that one for a few weeks but I said no.Keep going mister. I`ve also suggested we make it as positive as possible;he takes the kids with him for two nights, have a Chinese, relax enjoy their time together. I`ll be ok on my own. Really. I could have friends over but hey I really am looking forward to peace and quiet!I can always change plans at the last min if I need to and head out with a friens. We`ll see.
