All good advice here, its good to know youre not going mad, H showed me some photos which brought up emotions, one of his parting lines was "after you were ill I was just glad you wernt dead" that was nearly ten years ago, so for me the last ten years are questionable. But although sometimes I cant control the hurt and have a little cry, most of the time I just try to apply the 50% truth theory to it, H told me not to think too much about it, personally Id prefer to hear that it wasnt the case just his fog talking but maybe that will come!
On the letter front I used to do that to H when he went AWAL, writing to him everyday got a lot of anger out and onto to paper about how I felt about him, and filled the whole of not being able to speak to him whilst NC and hitting the delete button helped with the frustration. So give it a go it can only help!
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