Deployed Soldier/Father needs your help

[SoldierDad]

Tulsa, I am really struggling tonight.

I am feeling so sorry for myself. Crying, trembling. I just cant let go...

and it is SO stupid-feeling sorry for myself. Why should I be feeling this way? I didn't cheat on her. I didn't stomp on her heart. I just hurt so bad, and I dont want to feel this way anymore.

Why am I so wrapped up in her? She is NOT a good person. She doesnt give a damn about me. How does that make a guy feel thousands of miles away?? Like $hit.