You sound a lot better, my friend. And I see that many of your friends on the Board have come to support you . See how many people here love you? You do inspire us with your grit and your honesty.
I re-read your earlier post and Gardener's words. He is really spot on. I hope that you will find some release today in Church as I know this is always a comfort to you.
As for those who don't understand or support your decisions? Your father is so right. You wear the shoes and you feel the pinch. Enough said.