Need Help Fast Please..............

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Hey Gardner thanks for checking on me, I just got back from watching some football with the guys, one thing that has been a tremendous positive is that I have really found out that I have some terrific friends. And even if my marriage had not crumbled apart it is/was a shame that I had lost that part of myself over the last few years. I stopped going out and seeing my old friends and just taking a life break and chilling out every once in awhile....that has been nice re-connecting and getting back in the swing of having a life!

Now the bad, at the end of the night i feel absolutely broken and hurt still, not leaving the party or the bar or whatever with my W (really not my old w, just my W) is very lonely and it makes me feel really shameful and alone. I miss the happy family that I always thought I would have.


More to the immediate point of concern crazy FIL is/will be barred from contact of any kind while not supervised if my L and I have our way. I have been extremely fortunate to find a very caring and smart attorney who I feel very comfortable with. It is always nice to absorb some crap from W and than check in with L and find out how ridiculous/crazy she is.


Another interesting note, I went to lunch with a common friend that I was actually friends with years before W. She is a girl and a co-worker of at first mine and now my W. I wanted to get in touch with her and let her know what was going on for a couple of reasons: 1) I value this person and her friendship and wanted to make sure that she knew that. 2) W has repeatedly told me that she would make sure that when this is all said and done that everyone will hate me and never speak to me again....


Well, I told my friend that W had filed for a D and right away she just said how bad she felt for me and that she has suspected that there is/was an A going on (which there is) and who it was with (she was right). She went on to validate almost everything that I have felt and seen from W over the last 1-1.5 years(without any prodding from me)


Not sure how healthy this is but this made me feel real good about myself as this was an outside person that is/was friends with both of us individually and as a couple for a long time and she cannot believe the things that W is doing--personally, professionally, romantically, morally, etc...


I have not seen W much at all this week which has been nice, I am sure tomorrow will be bad as usually the end of the weekends are the worst. Will check in and hopefully have you fine folks on to help me out!