Spending time reading passages with you is doing worlds of wonder for me. It's easy for me to get 'stuck', wallowing when I think I'm doing stuff. Fear is a great paralyzer but finding that people, good people, are out there helps dissolve it. I am not alone.
Panic and anxiety about the spouse are lessons you've learned over decades. Yet, the more you grow those tsunami attacks will eventually transition to glurbles tickling your toes at the beach. Or at least, that's happening to me.. though I do see him as a riptide. And I avoid the near occasion of him though there are some things I have to finish up with him on Thursday.
Your situation blows my mind. I am so impressed and proud in how you are doing everything to build the best life possible for you and your bears. And that you're taking care of yourself first (be nice to that damaged ankle).
You're worth it.
*hugs*
And.. thank you for the opportunity to become your friend. It's priceless.
Panic and anxiety about the spouse are lessons you've learned over decades. Yet, the more you grow those tsunami attacks will eventually transition to glurbles tickling your toes at the beach.
Great visual. I look forward to the day when I'm not hearing the Jaws theme song in my head. (Okay, that might be a little dramatic, but there have been days...haha)
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And.. thank you for the opportunity to become your friend. It's priceless.
Back at 'ya, sis. Good luck with the Shark on Thursday. To the rest of all y'all... MD gave me a few days off, and we'll regroup late next week. My boss won't be happy, but I'll have a job to come back to. Sleep. Eat. Exercise. Sex. (Nope). Things are going to be okay. Cell phone is acting up. Keep praying! Purple puddles of gratitude, wearing SuperBoots and Attitude, Goldey
p.s. Phone is now officially dead. Will charge it up, but apparently I'm not supposed to be on my phone this morning. Back to sleep, maybe? I'll be in the alt this afternoon, but please, be discreet. He's watching fb. Kerry, I'll be in touch in a day or two. Or today, if I can get my phone to cooperate. Peace in 2010.
I guess I'm not going back to sleep. posted on the What are You Doing for Fun sticky, seemed good to copy over here............ Today, for fun...call a girlfriend and share. And Listen. It's a two way street, my friends. Check in with my boss (not so fun, but he needs a status update on my return to work plans). See IC at noon (fun...could be) Put my feet up and relax. Invite a friend to coffee or a movie, since it's raining buckets in the NW today. (Oh wait, that's everyday). Paint my toenails. Look for a new place to live. I'm going to take care of Goldey today. And that's fun.
It was a busy, but restful day, Kerry. I do need to watch how much sleep I'm getting. I'll probably get more rest today. IC appt was very good. We covered a lot of territory, and it was just plain nice to see a familiar, comforting face. I kidnapped a friend and stopped by my house, no one was home. With the friend in the car, I removed a couple of personal items from the house. Nervous? A bit. But it was good. Animals looked good. House was a mess. Taking care of me. And it feels really, really, good. Peace in 2010. Goldey
Journaling: Why does God bring people into my life? There aren't any accidents. He has a plan. I guess I shouldn't try to overthink it. I overdid it yesterday. Paying for it today. Back on ice. No work for Goldey for at least two weeks. Physical Therapy $ucks. (And I work in healthcare, so that's saying something). Actually, PT is offering me a lot of good info and advice. It's the pain I'm not real fond of. And most of the meds make me too sleepy to work, much less drive a car or carry on a reasonable discussion. Gypsy, I didn't make it to the meeting last night. Too much pain. I will have lots of time Friday night and most of Saturday to read and meditate. For now, more sleeping.
Still sleeping... Keep praying, especially for S16, who is determined to run away. I'm pretty sure I know where he slept last night. At some point, I'll need to report him as a runaway. Just not today. I can't do it. Oh cr@p. More puddles. I'm going back to bed. Cell's in the charger. Peace in 2010.
That which does not kill us only makes us stronger. I know its cliche, but it is also true. You are strong...just take it one breath at a time...
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
Thanks Lola. I know I can do this. I think I know what went wrong when I tried to leave him before. And I'm working on it. It's FEAR. Makes people do stupid things. Working the steps (CODA) and taking care of myself, for a change. Getting stronger everyday. Peace in 2010.
