Not Me...Ever part 2

[avermont]

Serenity--

Thank you for saying all this.

Thank you for feeling and putting all that anger out there.

Thank you for being here and helping all of us with your eloquent words.

[Serenity13]

(((Pigskin)))

Love the name by the way - Just watched my Boys beat down the Eagles.

I try not to forget it and most days it is as natural as my skin however somedays (like today) I forget He is here for that as well...Thank you for the reminder.

[Serenity13]

(((Tristan)))

As always I am happy to see you and hope all is well with you and Mrs. Tristan.

I guess this is what "embrace the suck" means lol.

Yes typing it helped very much...
Just getting it out helps...
Otherwise I may pick up the phone and let H know what I am thinking and we both know that wouldn't be a good idea.

[Serenity13]

(((SD)))

Always been an admirer of yours so to hear from you makes me very grateful...

Your idea about keeping the journal with me makes perfect sense so I went and got one today...

It will now be my people that suck journal lol - J/J however my H isn't the only one going in it...

My relationship with a couple others is suffering because we don't see eye to eye...

I just can't get people to respect my decision -

I wish everyone was like my Dad who says to me "I don't give advice because I am not walking in your shoes and I don't have to live with those choices."

Thank you so much for your kind words...I like seeing it as being on a higher scale then where I have been.

[mindfull]

Serenity...

I hate that you have to so eloquently have this to write about. (Now, how's that for a grasp of the English language!?!?)

You're special.

[Serenity13]

(((Cutter)))

Thank you my friend -

You have such a kind way about you when you respond to people and I truly am thankful for that...

Thank you for reading my thoughts.

[Serenity13]

(((Mind))))

LMAO - I love it!

Thank you for putting a smile on my face after such a long day

You my friend are special to.

[Serenity13]

(((Kara)))

That I do and normally I don't mind however I feel like I am not giving 100% in all areas like I should and that in turn makes me unhappy...

I believe you should give your all in everything you do and there are certain areas in my life that I feel are lacking...

I will be working on those in the future...

Thanks to SD and her wonderful suggestion, I got a new journal...Think I need a new purse to go along with it lol...

Tomorrow I will be on the hunt for lavender oil - I will try anything to create calmness around and within...

As for the little one...I feel horrible leaving him and I know this is going to pass however I feel like if I don't get a tiny bit of me time, I may end up snapping so he will have to get over it and I will have to release the guilt I have for that.

Better for us all in the long run.

[Serenity13]

(((Tulsa)))

It sucks - However it is nice to know that I am finally coming out of the suffocating depression -

Give me anger anyday over weepy...

Anger I know, anger I can control...

Weepy, not so much...

[Serenity13]

(((Cas)))

For the longest time I wondered why I couldn't feel anger...

Then I just thought I had somehow bypassed it and was stuck wallowing in sadness/acceptance -

I can't give in to either though -

I accept the emotions are a byproduct of what has happened however I will not let any of them rule over me like I did in the beginning...

I will feel them, then work through them with the tools I have.