Looking for my new normal

[Gardener]

Bunny!

I'm still trying to understand why everybody has posted what they did because when I look at my situation, I don't see anything remarkable. I'm wondering if I over-reacted this summer by focusing so much on H wanting us to be a swingers. He kept saying that was a minor issue for him because he said he had other more pressing concerns about our M (meaning me),

You're beginning to rationalize, to minimize, here!

but for me- it was HUGE,

And that's all that matters!

But he never held a gun to my head- "do it or else...", he wasn't violent, he didn't beat me, he didn't withhold financial support,

You're rationalizing and minimizing again. Having second thoughts. Why? And he didn't need violence, weapons or $ cutting. He's a master mind-f*cker who played you like a violin.

and I don't know what my point is here, other than it wasn't a big deal compared to others who really had it bad...

Oh. Yes. It. Was. To YOU! As it should be.
Someone recently posted to you - as others have in the past - that you should re-read your posts. I know I did. Now I say re-read them, print them and bring them to your IC (or give IC this site and your screen name).

You, Bunny, should spend a minute a day at the mirror and tell yourself, "I am not a swinger. I never was a swinger. I never wanted it or the lifestyle. I was made into a swinger against my will for the sick satisfaction of the person who should have cherished me, protected me, and considered himself privileged to be the one who was blessed with me. I am done. I am out. No more. Never again!"