Rough day today. No reason, really. Found that I woke up this a.m. with thoughts of what I would like to say to OW. And that opened doors for anger. When I let myself go there, it is intense! I feel so much more for her than H. Is that common? Don't get me wrong, I'm angry with H, but because we are piecing, and because I knew and loved him for over twenty years, that softens it. Plus, he is so remorseful and making such efforts. But her.....I did not know i had the capacity for this much anger before this. I would never confront her... she is not worth it, and it would do no good. But, oh the things I would like to say! Maybe I should write one of those letters you never give to the person but just lets you vent. Then I can rip it up.... hmmmm...I'm going to think about that.
