if anyone is out there...please give me a pick me up!
today was my nephews 3rd b-day...i want with the girls alone, really tried to have fun...which i truly did! great food, friends and family!
actually went early and hung out until like 10 hrs later...
i dont want pity..ya know what though? all of this no contact and gal hurts like hell...
im doing it , and surviving but when i get home, i MISS my husband!, my partner. i feel like he should be a part of some things that go on...he was invited but chose not to come...his loss i know it sucks that i am hurting though!
he actually has been in bed now for over 24 hrs...no he isnt sick...he just wants to relax...i am concerned...it seems the depression is worsening.he doesnt give a crap about anything...work,himself, me kids, marriage...scary. his sister even went and checked on him out of her own concern...
our kids are good. im sure they miss his presence but he is here alot and that has been when i either go do something trivial or find something to keep me busy until he leaves.
maybe i do want something, not sure what it is except my normal day to day.
any suggestions or input would be great! thanks
me 39 h 38 kids 9 and 6 h left 8/9/09 loving and devoted wife and mother still going...10 months later...
