You know, I would much rather make a good impression at this job. I will get back to Texas eventually to finalize the D. But for now, there are things here in NY that need to be taken care of first. And at this point, it is really just a formality. I read something somewhere about facing your greatest fears, and so I thought about it and realized I had already come to know my greatest fear and survived it. That was losing SG. And since I have already survived it, and really come out on the other side, it makes the rest of it seem trivial at this point. In the past, I would have taken the opportunity to see him, even if it was just for a few minutes. But now, I realize that it will hurt to see him, and that I do not have to put myself in that situation. Since we have no children, no property, no bills together, there is not much point of letting a relationship linger. But all in due time. I will probably go now in June, just to give it six months at the job. Take a long weekend, get 'er done, and come home knowing I will not have to go back, ever.
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
