Don't know where to post this.

[loveherstill]

She has left me to schedule all appointments with MC and IC and agrees that she has anger issues and other things to address in counseling but does not know how to schedule. She asked me to schedule the appointments. I was also asked to take care of her speeding ticket.

For me all I wanted out of the marriage was what she was giving me already before this all started.

What she wanted from me was to tell her I was proud of her and her accomplishments, that she was beautiful and the only woman in the world to me, and for me to listen to her when she had a complaint instead of shutting her down because I did not want to hear nagging.

I accept most of the fault in the breakdown of the marriage.

Since October I have been trying to make positive changes on most of these. I have become more soft spoken and understanding with every one, play more with the children when I have or see them, my anger is almost totally gone (had a temper and yelled alot before). She has noticed some of these changes and likes them but I think I have become more of an enabler.

I am seeing a pastor for my IC and have two sets of friends that went through this to draw help from.

I also pray 3 times per day and I am rediscovering my relationship with God. (Had not been to church in 16 years)

As far as the money, I am self employed and pay myself every two weeks. I just deposit less in our joint account and put more into my private savings. I do not want her to have extra money to play around on.