I can feel the changes, Sanderika...I just feel so annoyed with myself for still caring for him and still hurting over the memories. I know I'm in a better place now than I was a year ago.
I am working hard trying to get a clear picture of my finances; my expenses etc and then I'll get legal advice. The business stuff is almost wrapped up so we can sort it all from then.
I need to determine if 1.I let him file for divorce if he ever does (then I am never knowing if or when it might come)
2. I file and have it sent to him (I'm showing some control of the situation; a 180 but could get him offside just before we consider financials. However financial aspect will get him offside anyway. Then I go to court.)
3. I approach him and we file together. This is my usual approach; fair and considered.
I am tired of the push and pull. I know that if we don't wrap it all up it will drag on forever and this is not good for me. I need to get off this rollercoaster. It was once said to me you're on a rollercoaster but H is not on it with you. Very true!
