Don't know where to post this.

[loveherstill]

Ok, I understand. In the beginning I tried to play a head game with jealously about the female friend and it back fired. The MC who sent me to this site and got me into the books said that demanding an immediate stop to the affair would just push them together because of her depth in the fog. I was the controlling one in the relationship and the MC thinks this is a game from her to prove control. W has said that this is no game but it is her control. I have been bleeding the money supply down to enough for bills only so that she has to feel some consequences.

Tonite she is going to see om and like an idiot I just sat and watched a movie with her while cuddling and we kissed passionately a few times.

Me tearing her self esteem was a mistake and I had a few financial issues that made me feel less manly so I attacked her instead.

I want much more than sex with her I want true intimacy.

I have scheduled some IC for her and she says she wants to go.

Please tell me more or ask more because I want to save this relationship of 14 years.