It's Complicated

[RedHeadWife]

It's been 3 years now I think since I got the typical "I'm not in love w/ you anymore" bomb. H was about to be deployed to Korea for a year. This happened in January and all the typical stuff happened until he woke up one day in April and decided to stay. When asked what made him make that decision, all I ever got was "I realized I truly loved you."

I made a trip to Korea and it was wonderful. He came home, everything has been fine, but lately I just started to feel like I was losing him again. That was when I posted that other thread.

I did talk to him about it and what he said was that he can tell when I'm "searching" him b/c I'm having doubts and that just makes him lock up b/c "you know how your H is about emotional stuff." Anyway, things have been ok since then. I just think I need to work on me more and my confidence.

It was pretty much smashed from the time 5 yrs ago H admitted to having cheated on me. Once while he was deployed for 6 mnths and then once when he was deployed for a short time in FL.

Then, of course, there was an EA going on during the whole D sitch.

I think that's about it in a nutshell.

Thanks, Cutter