Praying for Light at the end of the Tunnel

[kjensen]

V, OP and B I think you all have good points.
I texted "what's up?" b/c really didn't know what to say and that seemed 'light' to me. I didn't sit around wondering why he didn't respond. I fully figured he wouldn't b/c he was asleep(it was 10pm). "good movie" would have been better.

"I need time to process" I thought was accurate, and qick to text since the movie was starting..could've done better or not responded!

Being dark for me is only hard in that there are two kids involved and mediation ahead with tough issues to resolve(basically the whole divorce agreement).

Emotionally I know I am really getting detached and yes, Virginia, you are right-I think that makes H uncomfortable. His angry/hurt response(if it was that) usually pulls me back in because I don't want to be hurtful or mean.

But I think at this time I do need to stay dim and bear is hurt/anger and stand strong. I believe he will see it only from his point of view.

But...I am detached...at least for today. I have other things to do. I can't help him or fix him and am letting him go. I'm not sure I want him back, at least not who he is right now. He needs to grow up and become whole. Its graduation time!