I suspect we all understand what you are going through b/c we all went through this. And we still deal with it on smaller levels.
Google "thought stopping" and "livestrong.com".
You will make it through this. WE here are proof of that. And when I was where you are, I couldn't see anything getting better. But it DOES. You have to have faith. And persistence to keep putting one foot in front of the other.
Stay busy. Keep working out. Read. Volunteer for extra duty.
And keep venting here. Not to your W.
You can handle it. God will not give us more than we can handle.
