Your memories won't go away, it's how you handle them in the present that matters.
You are doing fine. It will get easier. I think you are over the hardest part. Yes, it has been a long time coming. It could not have happened any other way for you (or me).
I am you in so many ways, I completely understand. My memories of the past do not creep in so much any more. I have made it a point to live in the present moment. I strive to leave the past in the past knowing full well I have learned volumns from my experience and am a better person now for having had to live it.
(((((Cas))))) I see you doing the same. This has made you wise.
Our futures hold so much promise. We are going to make fabulous friends (and lovers) to someone!!!!!
Like I say.....Onward and Upward!!!!!
Sanderika
ME48/H48MLC T 33y M 28y S16 OW 8/7/05 Bomb 8/16/05 Sep 9/05 H f'd D 10/3/08 D pp'd 1/20/09,7/24/09,12/4/09 D dismissed 2/5/10 H served me D papers again 9/4/10 D dismissed 9/26/11