Another Sad Deployed Soldier/Dad

[Another_Soldier]

I know SD it's just too hard for me right now. I didn't spend almost 11yrs with this W just to let it all go down the drain. I am doing everything in my power to keep from calling. These last few weeks have been so emotionally draining and i don't know how much longer i can hold on. I caught myself thinking about what it would be like if i were caught in one of these IED attacks or jsut not even caring about life any more. I just don't know how much longer i can hold myself together and i know as soon as i go see the Chap they are gonna send me to the crazy ward. The 1st phone call from my command is going to be to her and that will just show my weekness to her and i just don't know any more man....I leave country in almost 3 weeks and it's killing me cause i just have to come right back in 2 weeks. No time at all to really even scratch the surface...