Deployed Soldier/Father needs your help

[SoldierDad]

I've read robx's sitch, and see many similarities between his and mine.

I need to do the same as him, as far as not putting up with the same things he did, and re-claiming my manhood, and self-esteem.

I think if I could date, or be around other women, I might be able to work on the self-esteem issue, but considering where I am, it ain't happening.

I have to do this. I HAVE to quit accepting this behavior, the lies, the half-truths, the deceit, the CONSTANT denial.

I have been thinking of my own sitch, in that, those 2 days I spent with my W really damaged any chance at future reconciliation. The reason I say that is, she views me as weak again. She sees me like I will ALWAYS be there for her. I'm unattractive to her because I cried right along with her. I ACCEPTED her, even though I KNEW she cheated on me.

I SHOULD have stood up to her, and refused to sleep with her. I SHOULD not have allowed her to deny the things she did. I SHOULD have held her accountable for her actions.

I'm not sure what I want right now, but even if I did want my W back, I really hurt any shot at we had at reconciliation with my actions.

I gotta get to GAL'ng.