here we go again

[Jstar]

well he says so many things he just doesn't follow thru on.

ex: leves vm, jstar i'll give you money thur if not def. on friday when i get paid. did he, no, he does not have the ability to follow thru with what he says.

how/what am I to do with that?

he claimed again that he was going to put all his cards out then doesn't but says he made an appointment to go talk to the time share people for an update and keeps asking me to go.

i am confused in what the hell he is thinking or how he can think that this is ok. i've asked him how can he think i woudl go with him but he is just an emotionally unavailable person. not just as we are seperated but throughout the r. i know i can't change him, and he does not have it or want to do it.

what would be the behavior i can do in myself to change that?

baby is good, have to be careful not to go into labor, or they will have to stop it so i don't bleed out but if presents an emergency they will just take the chance. i don't think i will go into labor but.....u never know.

surgery is scheduled for week of feb 14th, probably for ash wed.