I think I hear what you're saying... I love your North Pole analogy! I hope that the momentum isn't gone already since I won't be seeing him again until tomorrow night.
There is this woman named Rori Raye that suggests that women be soft on the outside, and strong on the inside because men love women because we are able to have such access to our feelings. She also says that women really have it wrong in that we totally overfunction in relationships, when the "male energy" is to "do/give" and the "female energy" is to "receive/feel".
You have just alluded to sort of the same thing.
I must be overtired because I keep reading what you wrote over and over and then I feel baffled and overwhelmed...like I am taking something really simple and over complicating it.....It was a long day; maybe I have just lost touch with my inner goddess-lol. Like when he said that he thought we would never be rid of each other and that it was frustrating and pleasing-- what *should* I have said back (besides- 'duh!')? I am tired of being patient, I guess. He's the one that painted himself into a corner. I've spent all this time patiently (mostly) waiting for him to "decide". I mean, when he asked what I thought the big picture looked like, I kinda felt like "oh, here we go again. I am supposed to 'sell' myself and the marriage. yuck." I never seem to have the "right enough" answer when he asks me questions like that. (Like in August when he asked if I thought we would get bored snuggling on the couch.) hmm..but now as I think back, when he asked my what the big picture looked like and I wasn't sure what to say, I ended up saying "Well, it would look like you have a "[my nickname]" in your life. And that's pretty dang awesome!" He laughed at that and agreed.
Me-43 H-46 M 12 yrs 7/09 T 15 2 grown kids bomb 7/05/07 H moved out 8/04/07 11/22/09 told him I quit;let's get ball rolling Mid Dec- he isn't sure he wants D End 2/2010-Starting to consider piecing