How do you release the anger?

[ddstartingover]

I know that I have the right to be angry. I know that this is not all my fault. I've accepted what I am to blame for, but I know it's not all on me.

I am trying to let him go. I'm trying to move forward and live my life as if he is never coming home. He says he is done. I truly believe that that is what he believes. Despite it all, despite the truly horrible things he has said and done, I can't stop hoping to be one of those success stories------even though I've been the worst DB'er, and don't know that I could claim success through DB if he should return some time in the distant future.

I still do not want my marriage to end----even though what we have now isn't even close to a marriage. How do I process the anger---let myself go through this stage while dealing with H on a daily basis where the kids are concerned?