Any tips to deal with Jealousy on my part

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She knows that a PA is a deal breaker already. I have already set that boundry and did from the very start. Even before coming here for guidance.

Update: We signed our divorce papers today after some minor fixes to errors. And she signed the deed of our home over to me. It's all notarized as well. So far so good. Now we have to wait for the judge to sign them in early Feb and it will be all over with.

This is why it was so important for me not to make waves. SHE IS giving me OUR house even though she invested almost 50% of her paychecks in it over the past 20 years. She gets the Miata and I get my Jeep and Truck. All I have to do is now wait until our final hearing on 9Feb10. Unlike many others here that have been burned at the steak by their Xwives I am the exception. And I thank God for that.

Whether it is fear or control is irrelavent at this time.

Now do you understand why it was important not to piss her off right now? Too much at stake right now. All in good time. She can not act on her EA until after the divorce anyway so time is on my side.

I can always remarry her or somebody else but I can NOT afford a brand new mortgage at age 47. All emotions aside, I have to keep a clear head. As they say, love is personal but divorce is business.

I still cant believe she is giving me our house (its paid for) without a fight. I do love her but Im not going to throw the baby out with the bath water so to speak. I have to ensure my survival first and foremost. Not just for me but for her also. Having to sell our home would screw both of us if there is ever a reconciliation in our future. And I think she knows that.

Once the divorce is final I am free to say what I want to her. But Ill probably go dark. She already knows what a PA will do. She has even expressed some fear of what may I do if I find out. But still no proof of a PA either way and she vehemently denied any PA several times.

I told her Im not a violent man. Im pretty much a push over. But we will see. All I can do is wait until early Feb at this point and do some DB on the way to there.