In reading your posts, I'm reminded of what Jody told me about the stages: "Once you get to a point where you are piecing, you will find yourself very angry w/your significant other because you were the one who was working so hard to save the marriage. When you get here, remember to step back and take a break or you'll end up taking it out on the person you are trying to make things work with."
It sounds like you are here and may need some "space" whenever you feel angry and disappointed toward H.