CW I hope you dont mind me popping in on your thread! Just one thing I'd like to add, this is your second time around the block with H on the A front so perhaps now is a good time to not only learn to be more independant, I feel your anger about doing things on your own, just try and focus on the pride of doing it yourself. Even though my H is back and didnt have an affair after thirty years of being together I will never feel/trust him the way I did, so I want to be more independant or to put it a harsher way, independant enough that if anything goes wrong again I will be fine.. I always try to look at things as how would I do them if I had remained single, my single friends cope ok and dont fall apart from the lack of a man, they just organise things differently.. I bet your very proud of you S14 taking such responsibility on his shoulders for the fire when his dad is practising to be a 5yr old again! Funny my lad aged 14 was extremely grown up then, I remember him pulling rank on me about phoning H when I was poorly and I said not too, good job he did as I had pnuemonia bless him! You can do this hun and you will become stronger and wiser and set a fantastic example for your kids, just smile everytime it feels bad and remember what you are doing, its a 100% more than your H at the moment!
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Once lost but now found and happily married again!