Thanks Puppy. I think your right. I think I may have got caught up here in everything from the xmas break. I do feel something has changed. I am just beginning to process those thoughts.
I find that when I think something has changed I see it as a cog - it's just clicked round one more 'spoke'. Nothing has actually changed - I still feel the feelings I have etc. - but I feel one step closer to whatever the final outcome for me is.
I don't really process my thoughts anymore since I discovered the 'cog'. I just let them come to me when the mind has worked it out. Processing them takes way too much emotional time up!
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I do hope there is not anger all over this. I do not feel it. But I will watch myself and I hope my DB friends will keep an eye on me. I have never been an angry person. So its an emotion that I do not fully understand.
Cutter, I have to be honest, I do see emotion over this. But I see it more as resentment than anger. That is natural too (I still have it - do we ever lose it?).
Me 36, W 34 | D 8 | M 3.5y Sep 2Aug09 | Left 6Sep09 | OM in 10Oct09 | NC 17Nov09 | Gave up caring - Jan 2010
"Have integrity. Do what is right, not what is expedient." "Delay is the antidote for anger"
