Take three deep breaths. Then in the next three breaths say: "For this life I am grateful." The next three say: "For this day I am grateful." The next three say: "For this breath I am grateful." Then take three more breaths.
I tried it this morning when I couldn't get back to sleep. Eventually I got back to sleep.
Still trying to focus on myself, but of course thinking about W a bit. She's back on the costume committee for a youth theater group that I found for D10 four years ago. The theater thing has become even more important to W because it's really her winter social outlet.
For the next eight weeks, she'll basically spend her Friday nights at a church measuring and sewing costumes. They meet on Saturdays as well and then she usually spends Saturday night in front of the TV sewing, sewing, sewing.
She'll be too focused and busy to think about the M or really even do anything about the D. Since I'm somewhat dependant on getting a good settlement out of her before we head to lawyers I can't push it.
The theater thing always UPS the stress -- not lessen it though -- because she's so busy on that everything else slides, housework, work stuff, laundry. It'll be interesting.
But I have to not care anymore about the M status. I'm trying to psych myself up to ask out a teacher's aid at D7's school. I see her once a week when dropping off D7 and then I saw her walking at the Y.
She wasn't wearing a ring. My thing is I've always hated rejection and almost all of my relationships came through friends who tipped me off the person was interested. I have to learn how to just jump in.
Also I told one of my married friends on Facebook that I'll be single soon and relying on the married types to fix me up with their single friends. She said she'd put out feelers.
It's time to get going.
Me: 47, Ds 17-13, D final 6-11 http://tinyurl.com/yk4e2tz http://tiny.cc/thread2 http://tinyurl.com/ydtphqu http://tinyurl.com/thread4 http://tinyurl.com/3sm78k6 http://tinyurl.com/thread6
