I'm sorry KJ. It hurts no matter how much you are expecting it.
You know the drill - he's on his journey for now and there isn't a golly thing you can do about it. It just sucks that you and the girls end up as collateral damage on the way.
You may not believe me now - but in a couple of years I think you'll agree this is one of the (I was going to say best, but I'll chose my words more carefully) most powerful things to ever happen to you.
You will be a different woman when you walk out the other side of this fire - you'll be stronger (like the pottery that's fired), you'll be shinier (like a ceramic glaze)and you'll be resilient enough to keep getting up no matter what throws you down.
You're H has a way to go. He's a little boy lost right now and he's just doing his best to find his way. It's OK to be mad at him - in fact it's probably healthy to be angry with him (I wish I'd learned that sooner). Compassion? Not so much today (and I'd be cross with you if you were compassionate about him today) - but the compassion you have consistently demonstrated for him is pretty remarkable.
One foot in front of the other sister ... that's your job right now and you sure are doing it.
Thinking of you, V
V
Never make someone a priority, who makes you an option.
