Praying for Light at the end of the Tunnel

[kjensen]

D12 and I had tickets to see a Boulder Dinner Theater production of Singing in the Rain. She had picked front row seats so we'd get wet in the title number(they give out ponchos to wear)..and we did get wet, but were laughing the whole time so it did me alot of good!

I'm actually surprised with how hurt/angry I am at H for going this far with the divorce...I knew this would happen so I'm not sure why the depth of my emotion occurred...I guess I really was holding out hope...

Oh well. My mind is always bouncing between imagining my life without H and imagining him "waking up" and feeling remorse of some sort..back and forth I go..I realize the life without H is the likely scenario I'll actually be in..but there's a piece of my heart/mind that thinks there's always that one in a million chance as Jim Carrey says in "Dumb and Dumber"!