Back at the house, this is the hard part, you are on the rollercoaster and you are hitting the first big hill down, if you can handle this one properly the rest will get easier. You have done so good so far, do not give up any ground. Yes, he may be doing something he should not but you do not know that for sure and your mind is running away with itself. STOP, think about something else, whatever you do, DO NOT become your emotions. Do not let your emotional self make decisions for the person in you that is left behind after that emotion is gone. This is straight line anger management, or as I like to call it emotion management. Allow yourself to experience the emotions but take a moment (maybe 2 or 3 or 6 or 7) and think before you act or respond. "Is what I am about to say or do going to get me closer to what I want or push me further away???"
What you do not realize is that you have done so much better than most of the people on these boards today. Do not give up that hard earned progress. Yes, your sitch sucks. Welcome to the club!!! The sooner you realize that this is the hardest thing you will ever do in your life the easier it will get. I have never given birth to a baby but I bet this is harder??? Apologies to all the wonderful mothers out there but back me up here.
Ask yourself, "What do I want ultimately"??? Answer, my husband back in our home, back in my arms, back with my children. Then you have to do the things, endure the pain, go the distance for what you want. You are up to it. As motherof3 said, "You are strong and composed". You can do this. You WILL succeed!!! (((((mb28))))) and many more prayers.
Formerly "missherlove"
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Expose yourself to your deepest fear; after that, fear has no power, and the fear of freedom shrinks and vanishes. You are free.
